It's an 8 lane freeway. 4 goin north, 4 goin south. I feel like 90% of the people are going the other way. (i refuse to say wrong way, because i'm not going pass judgment.. yet) But I see that the end of the freeway is an abrupt stop... causing cars to plummet to their death. They don't see that (rather... they might see it, but don't truly acknowledge it). I try to save them, but at what point do i stop trying to save them, to make sure that i'm ok ? We do things that takes care of those around us without completely messin up what we have to do. Sure i'll give you 3 dollars. hell no i won't give you my last 3 dollars. (an example of that is.. I want to get paid. If i was only about getting paid, i woulda robbed,killed, sold drugs or something of the sort. i'd make more money doing that than anythin i'll ever do legit. But it's you want to make the most money you can without selling yourself OR YOUR PEOPLE out *this goes to you Mr. Johnson... * ) Anyways. Do i try to cross the median to prevent all these people from going to their death ? and even if i do that, and tell them that the way they're going will lead them to their destruction and the ones they care about (which is another issue because a lot of people only care about self :-\ ) who's to say that they'll be receptive to what i'm trying to say ? But they don't hear me tho. so people you know.... are leading off the cliff, and what do you do ? It's only so much talking and showing you can do before you just say f it, because at the end of the day, you try and try and try to save your people but they... (wait for it ) don't wanna be saved. how to save a bunch of ignorant, greedy, selfish mf'as who you call your people... who don't hesitate to steal from you, kill you, and lie to you (like we don't get that enough from people who are threatened by us ...) just to get a dollar. There's an proverb somewhere (i need to find it) but the just is...

The trees relaxed because they saw the axe had a wood handle.

Think about it. As a black man, there is nothing i enjoy more than seeing my people do well. I take that back. nothing more than seeing my people do well, and paying it forward... But DAMN i like to let my guard down every once in a while.. and i do it for black folk, because i feel that we have a shared experience (Gates - Signifying Monkey ) (wait... FUCKING SKIP GATES TALK ALL THAT GOOD BLACK MAN SHIT AND GOT HIM A WHITE WIFE.) and we can help each other. FUCK no. only thing worse than a white man is a black man who thinks he's white. i mean the white man aint sold no one out... the black man who thinks that money makes him white... has turned his back on the black folk that helped him and damn the white people still laughin at him. man if i continue to rant i'll be up all night. I can go about addressing the 90% of the freeway all night.. but i'll go back to it later ... for now i'm gonna just chill and do some real life work.

With all this bs said.. i do love yall. even if i have no faith in yall... my stupidity leads me to believe i can trust in you. how bout that. and more importantly.. i want US to be free.

“I freed a thousand slaves I could have freed a thousand more if only they knew they were slaves.”

-Harriet Tubman..

last thing: if Harriet Tubman said that back then when they were whoopin the shit outta us daily.... what the fuck makes you think that it's different now ? in fact it's worse... Niggas and flies.... i tell you.